Baba Sings

Baba Sings

It's Friday, 27th of September 2024

8:55pm

I am in Sochi, Russia. 

Just got out of the bath where I was crying, missing my grandparents, Krystyna and Edward. 

I was looking at a candle lit in front of me and asking them for support.

Asking them: What shall I say?

Because the truth is so incredible that no one will believe it.

Is it the truth, really, or is it my imagination?

Is it my mind playing tricks on me? 

Again? 

That's also possible.

I perceive the presence of my grandparents and their love is with me, supporting me.

I carry their name too now, and I am proud of it. 

I understand that I took some family karma on myself as a person, that I am doing a homework for many generations before me and many generations after me, including my daughter.

Practicing yoga with the master and learning more about myself and the science and art of Kriya.

I was wondering whether I should call my mother and ask her if she belonged or if the grandparents belonged of any type of secret society.

Does she know anything about this?

I will ask her during Christmas.

How can I convey to the people I love what I perceive and why do I feel the need to do that? 

Our ancestors are always with us. 

They are in our DNA. 

They are looking through to the world through our eyes. 

They are a part of us. 

When we sit in the temazcal, for example, and we call them, they are always there, listening to our prayers, apologising for everything that they have done to us because they didn't know any better, they were also a result of conditioning. 

I wrote today to Maria Valdivia to ask whether she has space on the vision quest in October in Ibiza.

There is fear in me that I cannot do it, that I cannot be four days in nature with only sleeping bag, and that I won't be able to handle this.

Maybe at least I can go and help. 

I can go and climb this mountain and sit with the sacred fire and participate in the temazcal ceremony. 

Maybe I can sing and pray for people who go on the mountain.

Maybe then I will gather courage to do this myself as well. 

The reason I'd like to do this because it's a bold move.

Very bold.

I was guided to do that. 

I would like to also financially support the quest on my mother Island. 

I know the island will never hurt me, and nothing bad can happen to me on that mountain. 

I'm scared of snakes and of wild animals. 

I've never slept alone in the forest on the floor in a bag and fasting. 

No water.

Maybe this is not the best idea for now.

I don't know.

The dark retreat in Bali, I left within a few hours, understanding that this was too dangerous for my psyche. 

It was still very fragile.

I watched The Last Witch Hunter today with Vin Diesel. 

How can this be explained? 

That all these beings exist, that all these worlds are equally real, our world and the world of magic. 

Everything in the world is ruled by magic. 

There's no exception. 

There are magical places all around the world, and we really know so little about this. 

This is, of course, sacred knowledge, and was hidden for centuries. 

People burned on stakes for this.

For passing this information on.

Some information was given to me, and I still do not fully understand it. 

I do not comprehend it, and so I should not be giving any judgment to it. 

Definitely, I should not be sharing any information that might be half truth, because it can backfire and be dangerous for myself and others around me. I know that with time, I will remember everything and that I need to be patient and continue practicing.

It's difficult for me today. 

I am emotional. 

I am on the first day of my moon.

Recently, I got upset.

I heard that moon is harvesting the power from Earth and from humans, and then I wondered, of course, why am I upset? 

We are like crops? 

For some beings, maybe we are being grown with hormones and sugar, just like we feed the chickens. 

Maybe grilled human body is delicious. 

Maybe the soul is.

The energy body.

I don't know.

All I know is that time and attention and the energy of human heart are very potent sources of energy for beings on other planes.

I have pondered around so called ¨feedback theory¨ that says that, I mean, it's a popular theory, of course, that you know, wherever attention goes  the consciousness is collecting there, prana is collecting there. 

When you start communicating with other beings on other planes of reality, I don't know whether they are beings or just different intelligences that form themselves in human form or semi human form, so we can understand them better.

Each of them represents a different gift.

I received a lot of gifts already.

They keep on showing up.

I really miss practicing yoga, practicing asanas. 

I miss balanced diet in my life. 

I keep eating crap.

I miss my partner, I miss my daughter.

I am here for another three days.

During my practice, I feel that there is work done on my body, on a molecular level.

I am going to test myself when I go back to Turkey to see whether there is any difference in magnetic resonance.

Maybe something will show up.

I am very grateful to be here.

Beings that I perceive as demons are not really that.

They are also here to teach us and to learn from us.

They are here.

We are here to teach them and to learn from them. 

Again, it's a feedback loop.

I had this funny feeling when I was sitting in that practice, that on the perches below the ceiling, there were different beings sitting.

Also studying Kriya with the master.

There were many invisible beings studying Kriya together with humans sitting downstairs, studying Kriya.

I heard the story about Sathya Sai Baba that during his darshans he would allow different beings including demons and asuras to come and receive darshan as well.

Isn´t that incredible that you are evil in one or many lives and you continue to harm and hurt other beings and cause havoc and at some point in your life, by grace of Lord, you remember that it is wrong, you wake up and start asking God for forgiveness.

If it is sincere you will be guided towards liberation as God can forgive anything to anyone, can you imagine ? 

The light of consciousness shines on everything. 

Anything can happen at any given moment.

The infinite compassion of Avatars like Sathya Sai Baba show us that kindness does not discriminate and is possible in all worlds.

Every Saint has a past and every Sinner has a Future.

Or maybe : there are no sins as everything descended from the ray of creation.

I´m not sure.

To be discovered.

Thank you Baba.