Diamonds

Diamonds.

I am looking at a diamond ring,

an expensive diamond ring.

Send me a message if You´d like to buy it.

All the little diamonds in it shine so brightly. 

I don't know why this ring wanted to come with me to Russia, but it's here.

It's a Piaget. 

It's called the possession ring.

It was gifted to me by someone who introduced me to gambling many years ago.

I continue to be possessed by gambling.

Luckily, I do not play in the casinos, although today I felt the urge to go and play and I didn't. 

I have not been playing for a few years now. 

Today, the biggest gamble is to bet on myself.

To bet on God.

Bet on my Guru.

I am ready to give it all.

To give it all, whatever that might mean. 

Going back to this feedback loop, I don't feel that this is correct.

God, in His generosity and kindness, created a perfection. 

If I don't perceive it as perfect, that means I cannot comprehend it yet.

My mind cannot comprehend it, and I'm trying to comprehend it.

I’m failing, I'm frustrated that in meditation, I cannot perceive the white star yet.

That I cannot perceive things.

Maybe I can't perceive them because I am not able to handle it yet. 

Maybe what's coming is so big that I have to prepare my body vessel.

I cannot feel my chakras, yet.

I cannot control my breath.

I wish to fully surrender to the will of the Divine.

It's been two years almost since this journey began in this lifetime.

I was gifted another chance.

I remember that there were astrological situations, events that I shall pay attention too.

I also remember that for beings at a certain level, especially at the level of my Guru, time does not exist. 

Space does not exist either.

Everything can be changed. 

The will of God can be changed. 

The faith of a human can be changed.

He can take and give life and remove all karma. 

He can do anything.

He is a power that I never knew existed. 

When we think about God, we look at the creation, but we really don't think, what does it mean to be God? 

What does it mean to take responsibility for your creation? 

What if you fuck something up, and for example create a world.

Earth with humans on it?

Isn't that a beautiful experiment?

We are this petri dish of God, laboratory.

It´s epicenter is Ibiza.

We are stuck in matter. 

It feels like a prison, sometimes.

Human vessel is a prison for a spirit.

We are locked in square and rectangular cubic homes.

In three dimensions, limited by linear time, or rather what we perceive as linear time.

Poisoned with sugar, alcohol, drugs.

I don't think it's humans who cause harm. 

I think that the visible realm is run by the invisible realm, and that spirit guides everything, and we live in a perfectly orchestrated Swiss watch. 

It's different spirits that enter humans and harm each other.

I don't believe that human would ever hurt another human, and alcohol and cigarettes and drugs are portals to other dimensions through which these entities enterand cause addiction.

Cause harm and disease and other things.

The world we live in is orchestrated like that by one of the sons of God.

I’m not sure what his name is.

Such a beautiful place we live in.

With beautiful emotions.

We learn to take care of as spirits, living in humans, we get a pet for one lifetime we have to take care of to the best of our ability.

I continue looking at this ring thinking how much pressure it required to create these little rocks. 

I'm thinking, how much pressure does it require to create me as a shining diamond? 

Oh, I remember I already am.

I am light wrapped in skin. 

I don't believe I have bones and blood inside. 

I think they appear when I am cut or hurt, because I am expecting them to be there. 

That does not mean they are there. 

I believe I am the universe and there are galaxies inside of me.

Including planet Earth and our solar system.

I believe that I am a layer.

Just a layer in a very beautiful cake.

Not exactly plain vanilla.