Harvest Kaplankaya - May 2025
- viviana.czapracka.gogacz
- Jan 21
- 5 min read
This is a special one.
12.01.2025
After 2 weeks in Ibiza in search for a perfect home I am back in Istanbul to pick up my little unicorn and take her to Costa Rica.
We will spend 2 weeks at Pachamama learning how to live better.
Lila will go to Jungle School and make new friends from around the world in the Waldorf inspired environment and mummy will do 100hr YTT with VedaELa, because what mummy loves most is Lila and Yoga.
As we are preparing for the trip we started planning the whole year.
How do we wish to spend it ?
How do I wish to spend it ?
This year is the most amazing year because…
I AM ALIVE.
In honour of that incredible opportunity I am going to gift myself some very nourishing experiences & one of them will happen 14-18th of May in Bodrum, Turkey at the Six Senses.
It’s called Harvest Kaplankaya.
Their 9th edition is curated around the subject of courage and that is why I decided to go.
I owe them, big time.
It’s family.
Friends.
Education.
I feel very nourished when I am there, on all levels.
When I arrived there for the first time, it was a difficult trip.
A year later I went again and during the transformative breathwork session of Lisa de Narvaez I understood that I have to file for divorce.
No mind, reason or logic were involved.
Pure consciousness and knowing showed me a picture of my child on the grass in her pram, holding a red balloon and I just knew.
Few days later I came home and told my ex-husband I was leaving him.
Next day Lila and I flew to London and a battle begun.
It was August 2019.
I continued to attend Harvest Series for 6 editions in a row.
Inspiring teachers, fantastic community and a very supportive environment made me come back, I felt safe when I was there.
Special couple that lives there took care of me when in despair I was crying on the beach late at night, not knowing what to do.
It is there that I learned about the existence of plant medicine.
Today on their website I saw that they are hosting a retreat this January guided by Bob Thurman, whom I met last time when I was there.
I remember my ignorance and arrogance in 2017 ( not that it changed, it’s just on another level now ).
I felt that as a biologist I know everything about the breath and I was convinced that sacred plants are drugs and I want nothing to do with them.
My ego was bigger than a hot air balloon and I felt very confident giving judgement to everything and everyone.
How very mistaken I was.
6 years later I am planning to go again and laugh at myself while listening to others how to be a better human.
A quick update :
I am divorced.
All plants are sacred, all are medicines and they are not drugs.
In 2020 I moved from London to Ibiza and lost what I perceived as everything back then ( my marriage, my home and my business )
2020 & 2021 while self-medicating depression and PTSD I was privileged to start working with the Master Plants and was granted experiences with Ayahuasca, sacred mushrooms and San Pedro.
2022 I started testing human potential by mixing movement, fasting, silence cultivation and entheogenic substances ( unsupervised ).
I overdosed ( that’s an understatement ) and ended up in a psychiatric hospital in Madrid and rehabilitation centre in Barcelona.
It was tough, I did not think I was going to make it, after all, I have lost my mind.
The doctors were not able to diagnose me.
2023 in February, convinced that I fully recovered I decided to take a micro-dose again on my 40th birthday.
This time, reaction was not only delayed, but also prolonged.
I flew to India to celebrate the birthday of Mother Divine and had another episode of so called mental instability which resulted in me experiencing a NDE and after perceiving my own death waking up at a rehabilitation & psychiatric hospital in India.
In March, I was escorted back to Spain where painful process of recovery begun.
In April I started Kriya Yoga practice and everything changed.
I am healthy, I am alive, my mind is my best friend ( we still argue most of the time, but with more patience and understanding).
From April to November I practiced twice a day and spend all time practicing yoga and studying.
My daughter and my books were my only companions.
In November I started planning my trips and December I decided to let go of my home and travel the world.
2024 I traveled 33 times and visited 22 countries.
Homeless by choice.
Learning how to live in truth & be myself.
My daughter started her education in Turkey.
I am spending as much time with her as I can.
Letting go of my possessions taught me how to travel light and to be more than to have more.
No-one who knows me really well would believe that I travel with 1 pair of shoes.
Hoka Speedgoat of course.
This might change soon.
I wear only white and learned how to fully accept life as it comes.
Now I also know I know nothing and very little about myself.
New kind of love entered my life.
I met my teacher and my spiritual guides.
Divine realm revealed itself to me in a brutal way but today I understand it was the only way.
I was deaf and too arrogant to hear what was coming my way.
1,5 years later I am writing this text.
No logic or science can explain how did I recover, how did I come back.
How is it possible that I am not locked in a mental institution for the rest of my life.
I know.
It was GRACE.
Divine will decided it is not my time just yet.
Some extra breaths were gifted so I can come back and share my story.
The truth of my existence : Kriya Yoga Masters saved my life and now teach me how to live better everyday.
I learned what is truly important to me and who I really am*
*SPOILER ALERT : we are all spirits, light wrapped in skin, we are all eternal, immortal and visiting here for a short but intense curriculum.
Everyone is both creating and curating their own reality and it’s all a cosmic joke, a bubble of laughter that we all take way too seriously.
Last words : Heavenly Father, thank you for every breath gifted for this life, may I learn to shut up and live in a way that shares the gospel without uttering unnecessary words. May the silence guide me and please remind me daily that I am absolutely nothing.
NOTHING.
Zero.
Absolute potential.
NO-THING.
SHI-VA.
We are all Gods.
