Is the world there if you are not observing it ?

Is the world there if you are not observing it ?

Now that my phone is off, I can focus on more important subjects, like God and silence.

It feels great to just shut up.What a relief.

Yesterday and today were very intense—two therapy sessions, one about my daughter, one about myself—caused some emotional turmoil within my inner world.

As usual, I am judging places and people for their potential and not for what they actually are. 

Same with myself. 

I have this conditioning that everything should be perfect—or at least the way I see it. 

There's always space for improvement.

Well, if that is the case, then I shall start with myself and adjust here.

The house I am staying in is a collection of memories of a very interesting family. 

It's full of history. 

No wonder I am drawn towards it. 

It's a pattern.

Today, again, I choose to let go.

I felt like that about many other places in my life:

About the Pearl and Qatar,my London flats,the home I lived in with my ex-husband—two of them,the first home I stayed in Ibiza,the last home I stayed in Ibiza.

Maybe it's time to let go and understand that it is not my job to fix or improve anything other than myself.

Continuous work on myself will bring the best results. Homes, men, friends, family—all come and go.

We get so attached.Eventually, we will have to surrender everything, including our bodies.

I am looking at my tummy and my breasts.I am beautiful and perfect just the way I am.

My body is happy if I do not eat late at night, and very happy if I practice Kriya Yoga, asanas, and all other forms of movement.

My relationship to food is changing. 

Finally.

I am totally and absolutely crazy, and I love it.

I accept all that comes to me in the form that it does, and I do not question the choices of the Divine Mother.

I am learning my lessons as I go, and now and forever, I will share with the less fortunate whatever is at my disposal—gifted by the heavens—without ever again harming myself.

It is our responsibility to take the best care of ourselves,and whatever that may mean in whichever form the world manifests,I'll give my best to welcome whatever comes my way with grace and unwavering, absolute trust in the Creator.

Respect yourself and always walk away from what does not serve you and your well-being any longer—no matter the cost.

Maybe humanity was created for this moment to happen.

Maybe I created all.

So today I may drown in profound sadness of understandingthat the love I feel all these years, in its true nature, is the love for God.

It is self-love.

All love is self-love,because there is only one thing,and both you and I are it.

We created this game so we can play hide and seek,just to ultimately realize that I am you and you are me,and within ourselves hides what we see in one another.

Smoke and mirrors.

I killed for you a billion times,and I shall continue my pathuntil I understand that all that I desire and fear is also a part of me.

Accept.

Absolute potential equals zero.

Nothing exists in this moment.

Even my daughter is a wave of light.

Maybe it’s like this:that the world comes into being only when observed.

And this applies to all other people as well.

It’s hard to believe, I know.

If you don’t exist in this very moment,then I do not have to worry about you.

Any other problems in my life? In this moment, are they here ? NOW?

What can I do today to take 1 step further?

Go to the gym?Yes, I know it sounds silly.Because how can the gym help with the future?

Well, my little sunshine, I am testing something.

There’s an ancient method of training.I found it in one of the very old books,and I believe it is an amazing tool:

To use a fraction of the time that you would normally spend at the gym—because at its core,it takes 15 minutes per day of good concentration,and that’s enough.

You see, everything in your body is conscious.

Every cell is alive and has memory.

By looking at yourself in the mirror and moving in slow motion,you can achieve miracles.

TBC.