Mar Y Sal. July ´24. Illusion of lack of progress.

Silence and Meditation

Arise, awake and sleep not till the goal is reached.

Unrestrained pursuit of self-interest is the only rational course for society since the best and the brightest will naturally prevail, and the rest of us will benefit from their achievements, resulting in  wealth.

Many who claim to know what they are talking about may, in fact, only believe they do.

Ayn Rand,

Spirit of all life, be my witness here.

For the sake of my own elevation and the elevation of all life, I shall strive to be harmless to myself and all others.

By the pouring of this water, I signify the transfer of my sacred waters of life from the mundane to the sacred.

Spirit of all life, be my witness here.Amen, amen, amen.

The Magdalene Manuscript

The 10th of July, 2024

Hermanos Gutiérrez

First day of my moon. Waiting for yoga with James De Maria.

I failed at reading The Eternal Quest by Paramahansa Yogananda.I did not go hiking.

I am observing myself.

The only way out is in.

No matter where I go, the longing will be there.

There is no six-star hotel and no food that can replace this feeling.

There is nothing that can take me away from you.I love you more every day.

God, where are you?You are within me.

I know Sun and Moon. I am done here.

The only comfort comes in Kriya Yoga and yoga.

All this pressure around my body and beauty is driven by ambition—to prove something.I am everything already, and what I see in the mirror is not reflecting reality.

What you see, you cannot be.

This void within me—I know it’s there.I have everything: health, love, family, friends, wealth.

My ambition is not satisfied.Thirst for knowledge and wisdom does not allow me to rest.

Not enough.

Now I know all is an illusion.

Am I eating corn?I am not even here.

Where am I scribing this?

In a factory of dreams?Where is that?

The tool I shall rely on is my breath.

Meditation is what I wish to focus on.

If I had all the money and no peace, what would it give me?A headache?

I have made such amazing progress—just amazing.I have no home and understand that the whole world is my home.

It is 11:03, and if I go to swim now, time will fly again,and I won’t find any solution again.

It feels like time is slipping through my fingers.

Listening to Master Imran gives me peace.

I can observe my moods lower and lower since I stopped practicing Kriya Yoga.

How can I eliminate more to make more space for what’s really important?

I sat down for meditation and, for the first time, felt my head and the left part of my spine—down to just below the heart chakra, but not all the way down.

I wondered whether the jellyfish sting had anything to do with it.

Did it?

It hurt like hell.I took it like it was nothing.

No panic, no tears.Calm. Analysis.

I asked the right person to help.

I might not believe myself, but absolutely everything is organized to the smallest detail.

I wish to be back in a routine that serves me really well, because I am IT. I am X.

I understand this.Every practice gets me closer, and it’s irrelevant what I do in between.

I don’t really like this environment, but I take it with grace.

Fire can teach me everything. It is the master of all masters.

I feel annoyed and tired, thinking there is no progress.

But I trust myself.There is immense progress.

I am calm and collected.I do not react to bullshit.

I trust myself more and more.I surrender without questioning when something happens, and I continue to work on myself.

Could be better?

No, not necessary.

The island loves me, and it will keep me here as long as possible.

I might go.I might not.

I’ll focus on myself.

It is Saturday.

Systems are still not in place.

Repeat, repeat, repeat.

Keep editing.

It does not matter if someone reads it.

It matters that I publish it and that it is recorded.

This is who I am today.

I am not running for office.

What would I like to know?

There is no such thing as waste.I am learning.

I will feel it, and I will know.

The sound of the pen on paper soothes me.

It is important to have these perfect pages filled—without a single mistake.

Yes, content matters.

It all matters.

Yes, God is real, and so am I.

Am I God?

Of course not.

Am I you?

Not either.

It is just a hand I am using to express myself.

It is very likely that I will never know who was with me all the time.

We have been friends for a while.

You invited me, and here I am.

The book will find its way to me.

Focus on the task at hand.

Hiking Atlantis, Ibiza (in my Hoka shoes)

You are writing in front of a flame.

How can you improve today by 1%?

You already did.

Kriya practice is completed.

You can go back to sleep and sleepwalk during the day,or you can get your act together and plan the whole week for once—so you don’t have to use your phone.

If you want to do something, you just do it.

There’s still too much thinking involved.

You need no plastic surgery.

Kriya and Sun will do their thing.

Just walk straight.

So, you are not happy with what is being written here.You feel that you are stuck in a glitch.

You are right.

Only you can get yourself out.

Systems can be looked at on a bigger scale.

Reading. Prayer. Meditation. Movement. Fire. Water.

Boring?

I know. But it works.

You feel energized. There is no hunger.

You feel awake.

Train your body.

You are so beautiful.Walk with grace, with confidence.

You are in no hurry to make any decision.

The ball is rolling.

Are you at gunpoint? No.

It is not your job to teach others any lessons.

You learn your own lessons.

Continue to strive to be better.

You are really good at it.

Visualize value.

Write better. Edit better.

Nothing new.

I’m sorry. There is not much more I can do here.

All that you think about is memory.

The mind is trying to jump back into these places using memory.

Once you know what it is, you’ll realize that this way won’t bear any fruit.

You decided to stay without any substances, and you continue to avoid them.

It will be best if you stick to this plan—even though there is very little risk.

Only Kriya and meditation are equal to honest prayer.

Stay with that experiment.

You are a valuable asset. Do not forget it.

Smile every day.

Polish your talent.

You are little now. Take advantage—with full speed.

Get whatever you want.

You can have it all.

Guru is always here.

You can’t do it 24/7 yet.

So just enjoy yourself.

Go now. Enough.

Rome was not built in a day.

I am proud of you—even though we both know you can do better.

Think. Think. Think.