Pacha Mama

After listening to Rudolf Steiner during my massage, I made the decision to return to the yoga teacher training course I had started. There’s a tendency in me to begin many things and not finish them—let’s see if I can push through just two more days and face my own resistance.

I imagine my fellow trainees as undercover Kriya Masters, silently observing how well I am taming my desires and my ability to commit to teaching under any circumstances.

Morning in Villa Bonita, Pacha Mama

I feel so basic.

My mind drifts toward higher planes, yet I recognize the importance of staying grounded. To support my well-being, I’ve booked extra sessions with VedaEla, as myofascial release and restorative yoga are proving to be deeply beneficial.

Less is More

Judith Hanson Lasater, often called the godmother of restorative yoga, recommends only four asanas in a one-hour class. Restorative yoga—this mindful rest, this nourishment of the nervous system—teaches us to surrender to gravity, sinking deeper with each breath. In that prolonged stillness, not only does the body find profound rest, but insights arise effortlessly.

VedaEla has also sparked my curiosity about yin yoga and yoga nidra—the art of training the body to fully relax while maintaining complete awareness.

Reading the first few pages of Yoga Nidra by Swami Satyananda Saraswati, a disciple of Swami Sivananda, I had a realization: I can use this practice to study languages. That discovery sent me straight to my mat.

How wonderful!

I had no idea that our subtle body could absorb information without sensory input. Immediately, I downloaded various videos of Master Imram in Russian and created a YouTube playlist. I made separate lists for the lectures of Swami Rama and Rudolf Steiner. My intention is to play them overnight, after my own practice of Kriya Nidra - technique I’ve been practicing for over a year with Master Imram.

A Circle of Transformation

Twelve remarkable women and one very patient man have allowed me to be my true self here. They have witnessed my vulnerability, something I rarely express in daily life.

After twelve days together, even if we never meet again, I know this encounter was not random.

We are witnessing each other in the process of becoming—transforming into our truth, no matter the consequences. Connected in our humanness, we reflect both our strengths and insecurities, mirroring the courage it takes to step outside our comfort zones. That same courage led us to show up on our mats, in front of this brave woman, VedaEla, who ignites a passion for authenticity in all of us.

With her unapologetic presence, she embodies the spirit of this place—PachaMama.

PachaMama: A Heaven for Transformation

Founded by Tyohar, a student of Osho, PachaMama was born from a journey of seeking. When Osho left his body, Ela traveled the world, searching for another guide—only to realise that the path itself was the teaching. She decided to help Tyohar build this sanctuary, an oasis of transformation.

On my first day here, I signed up for a silent retreat with him at the end of February.

I also made a bold decision: to cancel all my plans for the first two months of the year and simply stay here—to meet myself.

This place is designed in a way that makes silence accessible to anyone who wishes to explore this sacred practice. 

Silent sitting and satsang, 6.30pm

Each evening at 6:30 PM, we gather at the Osho Hall for a silent sitting. 

In that stillness, we give ourselves permission to shut up—so that our whispering hearts can finally be heard.

Osho: The Provocative Teacher

Acharya Rajneesh - Osho

Osho is a controversial teacher, and I resonate deeply with his lectures—especially his invitation to be a gambler in life, to dare. His sharp humor makes me laugh so hard that, for a moment, I forget how difficult the curriculum of earthly existence can be.

In many ways, I feel connected to him.

Like him, I don’t care much for public opinion.

Like him, I have a weakness for luxury.

I was born into circumstances that allow me to live like a donut in hot butter, and if there’s one thing I’ve learned from the world of ultra-high-net-worth individuals, it’s this: 

The need for spiritual education in those circles is so urgent that it hurts.

 It’s a contrast, me living here and there, oscillating between 2 worlds, I find it hilarious watching my reflection in the mirror with Birkenstock sandals instead of a Birkin. Oh well.