Suryaloka

22.10.2024, 9:00 am, Tuesday

Nobu Hotel, Ibiza

This morning, while sitting in silence, mentally whispering Hong Sau and holding a picture of Master Yogananda in my heart, I was praying to be lifted into my favourite state of suspension where I can truly rest in the loving presence of my Parampara. 

They are always with me. 

It’s weird to acknowledge that, but it is what it is. 

The state I was in was peaceful.

Earlier this morning, I was able to do a full Kriya sequence. 

Building new habits is not always easy.

Frustration arose because my mind was restless and mocking me: “Go back to bed, this is pointless, you’re not doing it right,” etc. 

“Maybe,” I answered, but trusted my body to continue.

It’s effort, and I’m getting used to the sequence in which the body, in correlation with breath, flows in time and space, creating new neuropathways, strengthening the inter-hemispherical connection. 

What my mind perceives as failure, on an astral level, is recognised as success. 

The subtle bodies are moved as the universe recognises the sequence of patterns in which the object is moving, whether the mind approves or it doesn’t.

 It takes time, attention, commitment, and sincerity. 

Kriya means action with awareness. 

One is not able to say what exactly happens, but as the quality of life improves in a significant way within a few weeks, there is a trust that builds up and motivates one to continue the process.

A Course in Miracles begins its journey, and all of a sudden, you feel that you’ve fallen into some sort of divine mechanism, similar to a complex Swiss watch construction. 

You fall in between the cogs, and it’s a little bumpy there. 

You get a few bruises on the way, but you don’t really mind, because you start to understand that you will land exactly where you are meant to. 

There is no point in fighting the current circumstances and impeding your growth by trying to slow the process down. 

As you flow in the divine stream of grace, bumping your butt on some rocks from the past, eventually you’ll start to giggle every time that happens, gaining momentum and speed.

Velocity increases and decreases depending on the adaptability of your mind to accept the changes that occur.

With time, you become less and less judgmental, and the opinions of the mind are just that: opinions. 

I stopped writing for a moment, took a sip of warm water, and looked at a painting that portrays my Master. 

What was I thinking? 

Why did I stop writing? 

¨That’s exactly the problem¨ -  he laughs—you started thinking and interrupted the flow. 

The stream of consciousness that was passing through you, catching a wave of thoughts that were surfing in the ether, seamlessly pouring them onto paper through your hand, was interrupted by the mind that always has something to say. 

It is sneaky like that.

Later, it will try to claim the credit for this work. 

When you re-read this text while uploading it to Otter, the transcription software, eventually it will be published online, and the mind will say, “Ah, I am so smart, look at this!” 

Well, it is the minds condition to take credit for everything.

I sat in the sun, cross-legged. 

A hat with an eye on it protected my face. 

My body feels the warmth of the sun’s rays. 

I am nude. 

Tears are rolling down my cheeks.

I closed my eyes and remembered: Today is the 2nd anniversary of my initiation into Kriya Yoga.

It was October 2022, and Master Imram was in Marbella.

¨Happy birthday¨ -  the voice said. 

Do you have any wish?

¨To have unlimited wishes¨ - my mind quickly jumped in, thinking it had found the smartest answer.

¨To hear your voice¨ - whispered my heart. 

Silence.

¨Can you hear the birds chirping, the kids playing, the plane flying?¨

• Yes, of course I can, I replied.

¨That is my voice. 

I am the sound of all creation. 

I am everything, as I created everything. 

Can you fathom that?¨

¨Yes, it is like that. 

Your voice is my voice. 

Your words are my words. 

Your actions are my actions. 

Are you ready to take this responsibility on? 

How would you speak to others if you knew that God is using your mouth to speak?

How would you treat others and yourself, knowing these are God’s actions? 

How would you spend your days, knowing that you are an expression of the divine, and you create, preserve, and destroy with your thoughts, words, and actions?

Take a moment to reflect on this.¨

“Absolute trust in the Creator” became one of my favourite sentences. 

Whenever I doubt or fear, the best thing is to remember this. 

“Accept” is my second most favourite. 

What if I followed the advice of Michael A. Singer and just said “Yes” to everything that comes? 

It is the hardest and easiest path at the same time. 

Understanding that you are nothing and everything at the same time. 

That nothing matters and everything matters! 

That today is a gift, now is a gift, and that all you really have is this moment only.

I paused. 

Looked around me. 

The sun is shining.

The calm sea in front of me is inviting for a swim. 

It’s getting hot. 

I’m going to tilt back and allow the sun’s rays to touch my most private parts right after my heart and bless them. 

I’ll relax my muscles and allow the communication between the Creator and His creation to be direct. 

I’ll open my mouth and expose my palette to the healing rays of the sun. 

It will stimulate my pineal gland. 

The rays will gently enter my nostrils, ensuring the pathways of air absorption are clear and disinfected.

In ten minutes of slow breathing, I’ll allow the Sun, the Divine, to love me in all ways He wishes. 

He is so powerful, so beautiful. 

Shining 24/7, always on duty, sustaining all life on the planet. 

I’ll brush my body. 

Dry brushing opens the pores and allows the skin to breathe. 

Prana, this magical daughter of the Sun, lifetrons flying in the air, will enter my body and forget herself. 

I’ll pray, asking for peace of mind, calmness, and balance.

Thank you, God, for making sure that I am safe, healthy, and happy during my scholarship in Suryaloka. 

I feel extremely privileged to be one of your research engineers on the quest for the truth. 

You are killing me. 

What a beautiful way to die.

Your love is so big and potent.

I have no words, and it’s better if I just start laughing. 

I love You. 

I know You are always with me.

I trust in You completely.